Thursday, December 2, 2010

still more snow...

So yesterday was so much fun even though I had to take some really strong meds for my rash.. But it has improved so much!! yeah, yeah.. I am grateful for Dr.'s who know what to do in times of emergency.

SO most people would make snowmen when it snows, or lovely snow angels.. my kids make trails to walk all over in. hee hee.. we had trails everywhere and some to absolutely nowhere! the kids liked shoveling the snow and it was really cute to watch. We couldn't even find our snowshovel, so all of the shoveling was done with a garden shovel and 2 brooms.. I guess that made it even more funny!! But today they are off to school, so I am off to work! have a great day and enjoy whatever makes you a happy person.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Loads of SNOW!!

My goodness, it is winter.. It was snowing all afternoon and probably wont stop till tomorrow! Its the powdery kind that doesn't make good snowballs. My jeep doesn't handle as well as my honda did in this weather, but I think it has everything to do with the tires and less to do with the car itself.
      The kids are loving the snow. They are thinking that tomorrow we will make a snowman and play in the snow.. and we might if it warms up a little.  ;) I will keep you posted!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

A very rashy Sunday..

Because of my celiac disease.. I get skin rashes. Usually I have only had them on the top my hand, but this year... lucky me.. I have had an unusual amount of stress.. and I have them on both shins and knees, one elbow and the top of my hand.. I look gross! I was reading about how to heal it and there aren't any real home remedies, so I am stuck with this until my medical kicks in, in January!! aahhh!!  It wouldn't be so bad if I was just a little red, but this is raised and bumpy and has oooozzzing pustules that crust over if I scratch. pretty pretty princess!! yuck!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Ok.. we are going public for a little..

Thanksgiving was so much fun! There were great people to chat with and wonderful food.. oh so good!!  Mom has been trying different recipes from a book that is GF called Cooking for ...Isaiah??... somone.. cant remember, but it is soooo good!! My kids had a great time, and my sweetheart got to meet most of my family. He stayed up till 1:30am to cook a fresh turkey for me.. because he knew they were GF.. Such a sweetheart!! He just gets better and better.. 

The kids are all doing really well right now, Ellen is getting it under control, and Aaron is trying not to cry at every little thing, Bassie is a little bit sick, but I am trying to give him a little more independance so he can detach a tiny bit.. Maybe so I can detach a little bit. He is so stinking cute!! I absolutely loved spending this Holiday with them.. yay!!

I hope you all had a fantastic holiday as well!!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

wow.. busy busy!

I have been running nonstop since school started.. nothing is clean, nothing is shiney.. sad.. but today for some reason, I did not make my day insane.. yes, I have some plans, but the day is mostly mine.  Yay!! house is gonna shine..  ;)

Last night I got to go to Time out for women with one of my bestest friends in the universe and I had a great time!!  Thanks Jenni!! I love to sing and dance and it was so fun and so entertaining to be there and see some cute boys dancing around instead of me. There was a really amazing talk or two and my life will be forever happier because I went..

You never know how much some people need to just be invited. I needed that. I loved it!!!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Hey there!!

Long time no post, so I am trying to be better at this again. Today I washed my dishes which seems like not a  big deal to most of you.. but I dont have a dishwasher and it has taken me three days to finish this huge mound of dishes that has been lurking in my sink.. a big thank you to Anna who started this huge task.. she got me started and then I could finish..  yay!!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

My mom.. Is a nut! I love her.. She wanted to borrow my camera for mothers day, to take pictures of a little horse.. I love it!
My 4 year old told me that his sunday school lesson was... If you dont drink, you wont pee in your bed! Hee hee.. So funny!!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Man, I love a day where u can have a moment on the hammock with ur four year old.. Even if he is a little wiggly! Love it!!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

year after year...

Every year my family, of mostly women, gets together and we go to womens conference at BYU in provo.  I wasnt really sure that I would be able to go this year.. Money is tight (to say the least) and time is very limited. But somehow life has a way of putting you in the right time and the right place and you get the spiritual lift that you need.. and the doors open up for you.. I feel so blessed to have such an amazing family.. my dad volunteered to watch my kids while I was gone.. he is awesome!!! I love the void that is being filled by being at this conference... shoo void!! ;)

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

its life sometimes..

So, things are fine. Nothing too interesting to report. My little girl is turning ten on the twelfth and we are celebrating at my house on the tenth after a full day of work for me.... so on the ninth I need to have everything all set for the party before I venture to work. Have I mentioned that I work and that it is already the 7th?? There is no time!! ha ha ha.. oh well... She is an amazing little sweetheart and worth every moment of preperation.  I just love her...

Thursday, April 1, 2010

a trip to the coast...

For spring break I got to be with my three kids. I was so excited to be able to spend some time with them and when I told my mom she said.. well why dont we go to the coast? So we did!!
The pictures speak for themselves...

Thursday, March 25, 2010


So I have been getting about 2 and a half hours of sleep at night lately sometimes more (which is an improvement).. and I am so tired. I wish I could sleep, but my brain is racing. I go to work, I come home and see the kids for ten minutes and then I teach class and try to do a project around the house.. right now it is the floor in the bathroom.. I ripped the carpet out and am going to have tile instead.  I hang with my friends, I watch TV, I eat, I breathe... things just dont feel right yet.. Is there a time limit as to how long you have to hurt when you loose someone?? I want my time to be up.. I am tired of feeling like less than myself.... ugh!!!

Jeep fixin day!!

My jeep is awesome! However, it has issues and needs a little TLC. I have taken it in to a mechanic 3 times already and they cant figure out what is wrong. So, I am taking it in to the dealership.. ugh! expencive!!  I am sure they will know common problems for the jeep and can figure it out a lot sooner.  I am praying that whatever it is will be easy to fix and not super expencive!!

On another note, I am having a good time these last few days. Hanging with good friends, meeting new friends and trying hard to focus on what matters most.  Smiling more, playing more and trying to find my real joys in life... a few live with me on the weekends...  love those babies!!

Ellens birthday is coming up soon. She will be ten and wants 10 of her closest girl friends to come over for a red carpet birthday party! She is so cute.. Love that sweet girl!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Girls night .. and Kyle... lol!

So monday nights I teach Zumba at Golds gym... The girls from the bank try to come and boogie with me and this week was no different.  My boss caught wind of it and decided that he wanted to come too... lol.. he is fun.  So after we went to class we all went swimming and then out to the ram.. the kitchen was almost closed when we got there, but we still had a great time and everyone was a little sore (some were a lot sore) the next day.. 
Love those co workers baby!!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

ok.. A trip to the ocean is in order...

This coming weekend, I am going to the ocean. I was going to go to Julies (sorry Jules) but my mom told me that I needed the sea. And I know she is right. I will have my kids and my camera with me and I am totally excited. I think the plan is to stay with my grandpa in oregon and then hang out at the beach collecting shells and running in the waves.. I am such a water baby... I know that my kids have never seen the ocean, so I am excited to share with them one of lifes most amazing things.. the ocean.
    I might have to buy a tiny tv for the car.... lol... who knows!!?? Here is a picture from when I went to UT to visit my sister.. she has 5 boys under the age of 8.. oh my!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

a light at the end of the tunnel.

So, Yes, Brody and I are really broken up... which honestly is fine... but doesnt hurt any less.  It was a mutual choice but I have been an emotional mess this past weekend and have really drivien him away, but I must say.. that was a bombshell to go from almost being married to... lets be friends.

 The logical side of me says.. just let it go.. he wasnt worth the time and effort that a relationship like that would have taken..  First off.. he doesnt have the same religious beliefs that I do have, second if someone isnt as insanely crazy about me as I am about them.. we have a problem.

But my heart is not convinced. It wants to jump out of my body and shake him and say.. seriously!! take me back!! I cant live without you!!! and it has been the dominant one this past weekend.. which is NOT a good thing.

Finally now that I have taken my heart, spanked it, and put it back into my chest.. my brain is taking control again.  I can see that everything will be alright. I can see that I am a person of value. I have hope for the future and I can see that the past is the past.  If he never talks to me again, then he never talks to me again. But I will be fine.  The sun will shine, and the skies will be blue... and I will be better for knowing him.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

church day

The hardest thing I have to do on sunday is go to church alone. Its no biggie deal to get ready or fix my hair, but sitting by myself is such a hard thing. I have my kids with me on most weekends, but on the third and fifth weekends.. I am just me.  And today is the third weekend.  So, what does one do all alone on a bench where a family used to sit? I read, I text, I listen to the speaker, I cry.. a lot. Divorce is NOT a fun thing.  It is hard. it is lonely and it tears you apart at the very core... I am strong though. I have made it a year with no dark thoughts and no attempts at anything too wild and crazy.  I am becoming the person I need to be.  I have learned so much this year, and have struggled like I am sure all of you have at times. It makes you think about who you are, who you want to become and how to get there.  I will get there, just have to wade through the garbage first... and sit on a bench alone, but just for one hour...

Saturday, March 20, 2010


I got my hair done today.. Getting ready for the summer. Lightened it up a lot! but its really cute.. sorry that I couldnt get the picture the right way.. lol..

Finally got some closure from the relationship I have been in for the last 5 months. So, that is a good thing. Hurts like a mother though...  (not you mom.. someone elses mom)

And now with the warm sunshineish weather I am going out on a motorcycle ride with a good friend.. should be fun.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

ok.. Its official!!

There are only 24 people invited to read this blog.. If you are one of them, then I really like you, so.. smile!! Lots of great posts are gonna be coming your way..

Sunday, March 14, 2010

womens conference

Here is the page to womens conference at BYU this year... yay!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

happy independance day!!

Just happy to have some friends that read this.. I am going to make it a private affair this year however, there are too many people that are trying to make me unhappy by taking my words and trying to twist them into something lame... SO... Send me a little shout out if you want an invite to my blog.. you have a week to let me know.. then it will just be who I choose to keep close.. thanks for all the love and support.. just trying to lay low for a little while..


Today I was sleeping all warm and snuggly.. then I woke up, looked out the window and saw... snow... snow? really?? Its march!! Its not supposed to snow until next November... lol.. oh well..

Its my one year anniversary from my divorce today.. I am calling it survivors day. I have been through so much this past year, I feel like I am a totally different person. I am sure that as a core person I have stayed somewhat the same, but there are a lot of things that I have done this year, that normally I would have been too scared to do.. I am grateful for the way things have happened. There are still things I am fighting for and things I would LOVE to have leave me alone.. but as a person.. I am right side up..

Friday, March 12, 2010

No more facebook ..

So, today I deleted my facebook account. I am tired of it taking up so much of my time. I am tired of people being able to know my every thought and action.. I hate looking at the people that I used to love and knowing that they no longer love me.. I just had to let it go... let it go...

Thursday, March 11, 2010


Life throws a lot my way lately.. I think its great for my growth and development spiritually, but I am exhausted.. I just want life to slow down a little bit so I can take a breath..
When I look back at this year, I cant believe all that I have survived. I am still ok. I still have great, amazing days and I still can get up every morning and have a clean slate to work with that day. What I do with each day is up to me. Good or bad, I did it.. I am so excited for the next year of discovery. I am healthy and I am a valuable person. I wonder what I will change in this world this year..

Oh and PS... womens conference is coming up soon!!!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

trying to make the best of a sticky mess...

Well, life sure has a way of turning and turning and turning... churning and churning.. burning and burning.. ha ha ha ha just had to keep the rhymes going...mowing...snowing. Okay, I will stop!!
I had a great trip to my sisters house a little while ago and took a whole bunch of pics, but I am at Brody's right now, so I cant download them, but believe me . I have some to post. (just for you mom)
This year, Disney land is giving away free tickets to their marvelous parks. When my kids and I found out about it, we yelled.. LETS DO IT!!!! so we are giving a day of service for a Disney day at Disneyland!! yay!!And you can too.. just visit and click on the link..

Friday, February 12, 2010

On my way to ut!! Love the mountains.. Cant wait to see my sisters and friends!! Yay!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

life is good again...

I am so excited for spring to come. i love all the flowers and pretty trees.. and the warm warm warmness.... The colors and life beginning again..
I feel like I am beginning again as well. Getting my life to renew again. Helping my children to see the wonders this life has for them.. I have had a very good holiday season and a very happy January. I am hoping that february will be so much fun. I know it is still cold, but the sun is shinning.. and the skies are blue.