stormy weather..

this is not a metaphor.. we are having some really stormy weather... the lights were out for a little while tonight and had us lighting candles and screaming in delight.. We are all in our pjs and snuggling up together for a night in.. the scooby doo movie is going full throttle.. until the lights kick off again.. then we will have some brownies and hot chocolate and go to sleep... wow the wind is blowing!!

I dyed my hair brown.. I love it!! such a good color and it is staying this time... wha hoo!! and yes... James looks so bad in this picture.. while Lacie and I look stunning!! Ha ha ha..

right side up again..

well, I have learned in the past 24 hours.. that being a drama queen doesn't do anybody any good.. especially not me... I have never been very good at it to begin with.. seeing as how I hate dealing with drama...I also hate dishing out a hearty helping of drama..

So.. here is a new beginning of my drama free life.. a re dedication to the drama free way... wish me some luck.. it is hard to maintain when feelings and things get in the way...

but I can do it!! Yay me!!

Sometimes life kicks back...

So, I was starting to feel comfortable and good.. thats when it always happens.. someone or something comes along and crushes you in an instant.. sideswiping you from your blindspot... hurting your heart and not realizing the pain you are feeling... not really caring too much about the hurt you are feeling... and wanting you to just be fine... I am not fine. I cannot be fine if time after time there is no recognition of the pain... sorry, sounds cheap anymore... Just stop hurting me...

Autumn fun..

Today I took sebastian acorn hunting at the park. and we found some fun treasures.. then I took him to the store to find a bowl to put the treasures into, and I found this!! so cool!! I love this new dessert bowl. I am going to try and make something that looks like this... I have been trying to be a yummy cook lately and have really been struggling with textures (because of the gf factor) but I managed to make some yummy things.. like butternut squash with butter and brown sugar

and salt.. so yummy.. and halloween cookies..

out of a box (not gf) and Ellen was able to cook them alone.. she was so proud of herself!!

then we were tuckered out!! so the boys sat around for a while to play computer games before bed... and we got our pjs on and now the house is quiet.. except the tapping of the computer keys..

I am blessed!!

I am feeling so blessed today! I got to see my mom and she gave me a cupcake and watched my son all day!! I got to spend the afternoon with six of the most amazing kids in the universe!! I got to work at the bank and teach Zumba and eat delicious french fries at McDonalds with my awesome friend , James (such a funny picture of him!! ha ha ha!!)

... all in all.. I feel so blessed!!

I am also feeling something else though... tired!! good night!!

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Been waiting for this moment for all of my life...

So things are good.. weird huh? I feel good. The kids are doing good. I have been doing more and sitting less.. which is so nice.. I hate to sit and do nothing.. (anyone who knows me knows that)..

Fall is here and again I start to get that urge to cook yummy things... which sometimes can be a challenge for the Gluten sensitive.. But I will embrace this autumn!! I will cook.. I will cozy up with my hot chocolate as I pour through recipes that I want to try and I will be amazing at it!! I am excited to try things that I have been too intimidated to do before.. Christmas cookie plates, beware! Hah haha!!

In looking for a job.. Wells Fargo gave me an opportunity as a teller, so that is another challenge I am facing this fall.. again I will conquer and go far!! (even if Josh and John harass me).. lol!! So far I really enjoy the days where the drawer balances and no one yells at me.. I am way too sensitive the other days.. but my boss told me that I need to get mean and start telling people what I need them to do .. don't ask.. tell them..

Another thing I like about the fall is the sweaters and the rain.. It has been in the 50s and 60s around here.. kinda on the cool side for this Cali girl, but the Idaho girl in me loves it!! I like warm clothes and snuggle blankets.. so nice...

My kids amaze me... with the quirks and the funny comments they come up with daily.. they really are a joy in my life.. I am so grateful that they are in my home as much as they are.. I so love a good snuggle on the couch with Bass and A tickle fight with Aaron and a drive full of questions with Ellen.. It makes me so happy to know that they know that I love them. It is my one place in this world I cannot fail... I will not fail them..

Well, there is my happy blurb.. figured you all deserved a lift after the last blog I wrote! Have a happy Autumn time!!!

Lots of Love to you!!